Redonkulus

One day while in court an oppsing lawyer used this word to descibe a susgestion made by my attorney and I loved it, so throughout my blog when I see, hear, or experience REDONKULUS momemts I will share.

Redonkulous

re.donk'u.lous-adj

Significantly more absurd than ridiculous to an almost impossible extreme; without possibility of serious consideration.

fitted to excite absolute ridicule; intentionally crazy and silly; completely absurd and laughable.

Sentence: George W. Bush is the most redonkulous person in the world.

The first Bush administration was ridiculous. This second one is just redonkulous.

Spotted in Brooklyn by my office: Man wearing a ricdonkulous suit

Is there a trick to Organization?

Everyone that knows me, knows that I am extremely unorganized. I loose everything (in college I left my friend Nicki's shoe in a parking lot), I can never remember anything, I even forget a question if I'm not chosen to speak right away, and these are a few of the facts that keep my life unorganized.

Now if you look closely that is a pic of my cubicle at work, and just by that glimpse you can see that I am also very unorganized at work. Now, I am not proud of this fact, I would love to change and become a totally organized person but every time I try it only lasts for a little while.

THEN.....................

Today, a coworker of mine, Delilah tricked me into being more organized at work. I'm going to give a little background. At work when we have cases, after we are finished with our investigations the case records are to be ORGANIZED and closed. Since I have been at my job for the past 19 months I have closed A LOT of cases. But there are a FEW (a little more than few) case records that have not been ORGANIZED and handed in. TECHNICALLY, those cases though closed are not considered closed. On top of that my supervisor is the "Haitian Hitler" when it comes to messing up at work.

So, in order to TRICK (scare) me into organization Delilah (my unit member) sends me a bbm stating that out deputy director came by my desk today looking for a case record and while looking she realized that I had about 20 (oops I told) old case records and chewed out my supervisor which in turn stated that she was going to "take care of me" when I got back from court. She stated that they were ordering me to do home visits by Friday for each case before I handed in the records in and I would also be written up for each case. After reading the bbm message my anxiety quickly kicked in and my stomach started churning and I even became physically sick (I will leave it at that). Anyways she let that simmer in for a couple of hours and before I went back the office I called Delilah to check on our supervisor's status (see how close to death I was) and she confessed, saying that she was trying to teach me a lesson........AND BOY DID I LEARN A LESSON.

THANK YOU DeDe, now you should help me like you promised.

BABY SNATCHER

How long can I do this? I ask myself this question every time I deal with a removal ( taking a child from their home). Today was hard. When I have to look into a child's face and I am not able to comfort them and tell them that I can not promise that they will be gong home anytime soon, it makes me question my purpose. When tears are running down their eyes, when they are making excuses for the abuse and neglect that they continuously receive, when I'm telling a crying child happy birthday on the day of removal, and he/she is begging to go home with desperation and tears in his/her eyes, the guilt sets in and I think to myself, I'm going home tonight and he/she is not.

But them.........

I remember the moments when I arrive at a home and a kid is covered in marks/bruises, on the brink of suicide, has no food due to a drug habit, is being cursed at and put down everyday, is being inappropriately touched by someone who they trust (father, brother etc), having to watch and participate in domestic violence between parents, and that is only a few situations I can think of that I have personally encountered at work.

I realized......

The plan is to intervene for a short period of time, and return the children home as soon as the home environment is a heaven and not a hell that they have gotten use to because that is all he/she is accustom to. I know that my purpose is noble and will continue to do this until God sees different for me.

Giving In

I thought I would be the last person to start a blog. I use to think that I blogging isn't me, what would I write about, and am I creative enough? But after following my two friends Alinka and Nicole's blog I finally decided to GIVE IN. Well we will just have to see how it goes. I also thought about he fact that due to my self diagnosis of A.D.D I can never finish or follow through with any thing I start.